Never

Sometimes no words can express what we feel inside. No sense in us trying to hide. No reason to turn away. Every reason to dismay. Not seeing beyond today. Not looking for a way. Just sitting all by myself. Just feeling not like myself. Just wanting to have a reason. Maybe for everything there is a season. Can't imagine what's in store. Can't allow myself to feel anymore. The days roll by so gloomy and grey. Every minute, every hour, every second of every day. If only to see, to have, to hold. A lifetime of memories, now only cold. A treasure of trinkets from days gone by. I keep them near me, they never die. The pillow is wet, the tears have dried. The sun is rising up in the sky. I wake to find the same tomorrow. I wake to feel the same old sorrow. I reach for someone no longer there. I hold a moment in despair. I cannot see how love can prevail. Even in its greatness, it tends to fail. How cruel it is to the faint hearted. How dark and deep when love's departed. The day is night, the night is now day. A creature of the night to shy away. From bursting sunshine, from happiness forevermore. I just cannot live it anymore. Whence cometh my life, whence revealed my love. Will it descend on me like a dove. No, never, never again. Never to feel, never to bend. Never to know, never to hold. Never to see you, never no more.